Bad Mommy!!!

I know I keep saying that I will up-date more often... and its not like there is a lack of things to up-date about... SO much is really going on in our lives... thus why i have not had time to update!

Well Happy New Year... Merry Christmas... umm what else did we miss... I have no idea... so I will try to write in order of events... but it prob won't happen the way it should!

First as I have stated before I was worried about Grayson and his lack of talking... he has in the last month started to sign more again and says "oh" for everything... he gets his point across even if he doesn't talk... well I brought this point up to the pediatrician and he recommened we get him tested with the state (Early Childhood Intervention) and to see a Neurologist! Well we have started the ECI testing to see if he will qualify for that... and we saw the Neuro! At the appointment they did some testing in 4 categories.... Social(hold eye contact, smile) so he passed that... Gross Motor (standing, crawling, moving) so since he was running all around no probs there... Fine Motor (pincher grip, hold crayon) and since he is advanced and uses utensils to feed himself and hold a crayon correctly not in a fist he passed that... and last Speech (he should be saying 8-10 words be it sign or verbal, and pair up words -- ie hi momma) he is ranging about 5-6 months delay since he does sign/say 2 things... but he does not pair sounds when he babbles... does not say anything that he thinks he is talking but I just don't understand.... so he is having a pretty severe delay... at his age the Neuro normally wouldn't be concerned as he is still young... but since he used to say more (momma, dada, dog, milk, bye... I know there were more now I don't remember... short term memory) So... he is going to aggressive on his stance... we will be starting very aggressive speech therapy of twice a week for the next 6 months... we will be seeing the Neuro again in 3 months to see if he has had any progress BUT if he has not had any progress he will do more testing (MRI/CT) but for those he will have to be sedated and I would rather wait! Also, today we are going back to the ENT for another hearing test to verify that it is NOT a hearing issue!

Can I lie and say no I'm not worried it will all be ok... sure I can... but I really have NO idea... Do I want to find problems where there are none... not really I would rather have my happy go lucky baby without worries... but since as soon as I think all is good... it seems that we are thrown a curve ball... I think we will always have something... but we will see!!!

Christmas... it was good... Grayson got way too many toys... I have no idea where we will put everything... I need to be cleaning an organizing... but as always I am not!!!

New Years... lets hope that year goes better than last... I feel that this year will bring lots of change lets just hope that it is for the better!

I will add pictures later!