Have you ever had one of THOSE days where you feel like the whole world is crashing around you... that anything that can go wrong ... will go wrong... that all you want to do is go hide under a rock and wait for another day? THEN you read something... or see a smile... and feel that little giggle from deep inside... that you now feel like you can make it over that HUMP... well I have been under that rock... the if it can it will go wrong rock... then I look at Gray and think... if he can smile and laugh why can't I!?! SO I am trying hard EVERY day to remember that... and when I feel the world is crashing... I think of something silly the boy has done... like yesterday he was sitting on the potty... I was in front of him holding him up... i'm so nervous he will fall in... silly I know... but he still has bad "aim" and peed all up the front of my shirt... had us both laughing... but I will keep that in the back of my head for one of those "rock" days when I need to smile!

Well off topic the above was... but what brought me to it was a friends blog... she is a photographer... that I met through my cousin... well it basically was saying why wait... why wait to have pics taken... till you loose those 5 lbs... or till your hair is done... or till you have a special occation... celebrate the daily life's celebrations... you woke up again... don't wait till the next birthday or special day... take a pic of the bbq outside... and don't hide behind the camera... get out of the studio images... they are more real life and will capture what your family is really like... and SO many photographers out there are SO awesome... I am lucky enough to know WAY too many! I just wish I could join them... I LOVE taking pics... I wish I could be brave enough to do it professionally! but for now Gray and family are my canvas... and I love it! BUT once again off topic... but reading Sabrina's blog reminded me of my maternity pics... when the photographer kept asking where daddy was... and then asked if I wanted the stretch marks removed... well yes I wish daddy had been in the pics... but well he was out of the picture and had been out of the picture for a while! But how do explain that when you are 7 months pregnant and big and fat... kinda hard to do! Then about the stretch marks that most people would LOVE to have hidden... I was proud of EVERY single one I got... it meant that my little man was getting bigger and was still in my tummy... plus proof that yes he was in my belly and that is what he did to me... yes I will be THAT mom that says I got ALL these stretch marks to carry YOU... AND I was in labor for 18 1/2 hrs with you... yes I am THAT mom... but no I would NEVER trade a single one! Then yes I would love to loose the 5... 10... 30 lbs... before having pics taken with Gray.... BUT I want to document that I was in the picture... and I was here... AND I love EVERY picture that I am in with him... NO I still don't like having pics taken of me... BUT I treasure EVERY pic that I have of us...

SO long story short... skip a few dinners out... forget those 5 lbs you want to loose... go get a photographer to take family pics... that everyone one in your family is in... and ENJOY every minute... even with that crooked smile... or closed eyes... or the pimple or whatever... capture the now in the pics... cause time passes SO quick!!!